My brain was being stuff by problem recently.

Hmmmm..... This December was quite bad for us huh?
Don't know what's going on the situation,
I was so hesitating on myself (Hesitate without reason),
I was freak off by some problem,
Can anyone tell me what is Friendship?
Can anyone tell what is Family Relationship?
Even myself can't answer myself,
Actually,i am a guy too,i need love,i need someone to care about,
I need a girlfriend who can know me well,
But well,times is being cruel to me,
I still can't find anyone who know me well,
I do really need a good listener at the time being,
Female will be very good listener compare to male,
Because according to psychologist said,
Female has the patient to listen and analyze our problem,
And give us advice with heart true,
So i keep my finger cross,i hope to find someone who can talk with me!

As the time being,i was getting elder and elder,
And became more and more materialistic,
When i was small i want Toys/Cartoon,
When i was primary i want Handphone,
When i was secondary i want cool stuff,
And when i have becoming a teenager,i want something lagi big,
I want Car,Laptop,Money and Chicks,
Well,you know human can't get everything satisfy.
This is why i love my MUM and DAD so much!!!!!
They are quite annoying and being very strict to me sometimes,
But they still buy me stuffs without any reason,
They work hard and i understand what situation i am having now,
Well, i told myself why not be accepted the truth now,
Perhaps i will have a better future life,
Who know rite?
Now i am facing lots of problem but i know it will clear 1 day,
And i will smile and tell the world i am Okay!

I just trying to be nice to everybody,so please appreciate.....

I've leave this place for a time~

Hello~ My dearie blog,
I've been leaving off this place for almost several months,
Well,my life goes smooth but with some minor turmoil too,
This few months,i have enter to National Service,
And i serve the community!!!! (Sounds "kind" rite?)
And now,i entered college (SEGI KL),
Currently studying certificate level,
Although it's quite boring,but i cannot blame anyone but myself,
So accept the truth and face the fact......


Well,few months already,i've not thinking bout her for few months!!!
She has a Boyfriend,
I can't said she abandoned me,because i nvr take action also,
But loving a person,is to wish them not to curse them,
So i wish you with my true heart~


Hmmmm.... According to psychologist said,
A person who always making joke around,is the person who are very lonely,
Hmmm..... Seems like saying myself huh?
But well,this is life....We have murmuring sometimes,but tomorrow gonna be better day!!!


I trust that Wan Siu Mun,can make his own life wonderful!!!!

My life without you.

I waited for the whole day yesterday,
And Yes! I got the answer i want,
But it seems not enough for me,
Sometimes you just wouldn't know,what am i thinking,
I just want to steal a little moment from your busy life and own it,
The moment i spend with you,is the moment i treasure.

Last sunday,i went to Port Dickson with my friends,
All of us played banana boat,
It's irritating!!!!
And i told myself,i must bring you here 1 day,
Once you fall into the sea,
I will hold your hand a pull you up,
Once you injured by those sand shank,
I will tears of my shirt and give you a piece of cloth to cover your wound,
Once you got choke by those sea water,
I will help you to release all the water out,
I promise i will protect you always,
I tried my best to made you happy,but you seems not appreciate it,
My friends ask me to out from this hell hole,
But i don't wanna give you,except you tell me that we are impossible,
If not i won't give up at all,
If you allow me to call you,
I promise i will call you everyday any time,
If you allow me to send you msg,
I promise my phone is ON 24 Hours and is always by my side,
I don't care the radiation,i just want a msg from you,
But i don't have the guts to call you,
Because i scared i will interrup your busy time,
My day and night just couldn't be perfect if without your msg,
Its been 2 days,we not texting.....do you know i miss you lot?
I admit i might be like flirting or joking always,
But this time i am serious on you,
I understand what you feel sometime,
So i just decided to jogging every night,
I just wanna let peoples see,the new Derrick,
Which wearing a tidy and neat attire,
I promise you,i will change.
Please give me a chance,and promise my dating,
I want to prove my love to you.
Miss AM can you hear it?

Missing You

Is Like Being

Lost In A

Black And White World ....

Everything

Seems So

Faded And Lonely ...

My blog don't have any guests,i just wanna express my feeling to you MISS AM! 

I really miss you so much Miss AM

I am getting myself crazy.

You are my addiction.

Hi,how's your life over there? Are you happy-ing? Sorrow-ing?
Can you please share with me?
I tried not to think of you for at least 1 day,
But it doesn't work,
I tried to go for intensive sports,
But i just wanna let you know,you are my motivation,
Everytime when i think of you,i felt energetic,
So now you know how addicted you are?
I feeling myself are becoming a insane dude soon,
I got no thing to do for the entire day and entire week,
But i think of you all the time,
I think of you when i facebook-ing,
I think of you when i was eating,
I think of you when i was sleeping,
I think of you when i was reading,
I think of you when i was in the toilet,
I think of you every day,
I think of you every hours,
I think of you every minute,
I think of you every sec.
You're so addictive,you know?

I like you not that you're pretty,
I like is your smile,
I like is your tone of speaking,
I just hope to share your happiness,sadness or crazyness.
I don't mind at all.

Sometime i wait for your reply for bout few hours,
And today i wait for your reply for the whole day,
Do you know how i feel?
Here i tell you,i feel lonely.
I just need you to be with me,you know?
I told myself not to give up easily,
And i know if i not giving up,
I will be busted,
But i don't busted if i got you.
I Love You Ms AM.

When i was down,where the heck are you?

Today suppose to be a greatful day for,
But someone just broke down my day,
Sometime i wonder why?
Why i wasted your money?
Who you think i am?
Why can you be so stubborn?
You know i already tried my best to did my duty?
You know i already frustrated on you?
How come you can be so cruel?
My day was totally broke down by you guys!
If you guys not planning to do it,
Then please tell me at the first,
Don't wait till the final decision moment and you guys giving me so many bullshit excuse!
You all wouldn't know how bullshit are you guys.......
I suppose to respect you all instead of hate!
But you are forcing me to do this way!
Sometime i told myself to think of your situation,
But well i just can't accept the excuse you gave!
I'm just begging the GOD to give me some luck!
I try to be stronger,be determine,be tolerant and be tough,
But i been attacked by so many stuff in this entire MARCH!


To The One I Love and Admire:
Where are you,when i was having such challenging stuff?
Maybe you're happy-ing with your friends!
When late at night,i can't fall asleep,
I look at the STARS and i wish you are missing me too,
Sometime i just need your words to cheer me up,
I got no regret to love you,
In spite you're different races with me,
But still the same words "Who Fuck Care?"
As long that i love you and never mind at all!
You are my antidote,
You are my everything,
But i am just a ordinary friend in your mind?
Hmmm.......



To GOD:
I hope you can bless me.......
I am tired of facing them,
Please stop giving me so much challenge issues,
I need a rest.
And wanna ask you a question.
Why those who did bad deeds never get punishment?
I admit i did some bad deeds too but i admit i do good deeds sometimes too,but why i got such issue?
A peaceful dream!
A peaceful life!
A Peaceful environment!
Its enough for me,i'm not greedy.

I wondering what i doing now is it the right thing?

I just don't know why i fall in love with you,
Your Face,
Your Laugh,
Your Lips,
Your Eyes,
Your ear,
I just love you like hell,and you'll never realize it,
Evry morning i woke up,i told myself (live well),
I just hope to see your face everyday and every moment,
You always told me that you aren't pretty,
But in my heart,you're like an angel for me,
I love you because of the shock feel,
I care you a lot,
Everytime when i text you,you didn't reply me,
I was wondering are you busy or what?
Or you dislike my text?
Perhaps!
Although we are the different race,but who care?
I love you is enough.
I wanna confess to you,but i don't have the guts.
I stop hoping start from now,i just wanna get in your heart,
And i wanna be selfish,i wanna own you forever ever!
I promise you!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Story of Regret

There was this guy who believed very much in true love and decided to take his time to wait for his right girl to appear. He believed that there would definitely be someone special out there for him, but none came.

Every year at Christmas, his ex-girlfriend would return from Vancouver to look him up. He was aware that she still held some hope of re-kindling the past romance with him. He did not wish to mislead her in any way. So he would always get one of his girl friends to pose as his steady whenever she came back. That went on for several years and each year, the guy would get a different girl to pose as his romantic interest. So whenever the ex-girlfriend came to visit him, she would be led into believing that it was all over between her and the guy. The girl took all those rather well, often trying to casually tease him about his different girlfriends, or so, as it seemed! In fact, the girl often wept in secret whenever she saw him with another girl, but she was too proud to admit it. Still, every Christmas, she returned, hoping to re-kindle some form of romance. But each time, she returned to Vancouver feeling disappointed.

Finally she decided that she could not play that game any longer. Therefore, she confronted him and professed that after all those years, he was still the only man that she had ever loved. Although the guy knew of her feelings for him, he was still taken back and have never expected her to react that way. He always thought that she would slowly forget about him over time and come to terms that it was all over between them. Although he was touched by her undying love for him and wanted so much to accept her again, he remembered why he rejected her in the first place-she was not the one he wanted. So he hardened his heart and turned her down cruelly. Since then, three years have passed and the girl never return anymore. They never even wrote to each other. The guy went on with his life..... still searching for the one but somehow deep inside him, he missed the girl.

On the Christmas of 1995, he went to his friend's party alone. "Hey, how come all alone this year? Where are all your girlfriends? What happened to that Vancouver babe who joins you every Christmas?", asked one of his friend. He felt warm and comforted by his friend's queries about her, still he just surged on.
Then, he came upon one of his many girlfriends whom he once requested to pose as his steady. He wanted so much to ignore her ..... not that he was impolite, but because at that moment, he just didn't feel comfortable with those girlfriends anymore. It was almost like he was being judged by them. The girl saw him and shouted across the floor for him. Unable to avoid her, he went up to acknowledge her.

"Hi......how are you? Enjoying the party?" the girl asked.

"Sure.....yeah!", he replied.
She was slightly tipsy..... must be from the whiskey on her hand. She continued,
"Why...? Don't you need someone to pose as your girlfriend this year?" Then he answered, "No, there is no need for that anymore......"
Before he can continue, he was interrupted, "Oh yes! Must have found a girlfriend! You haven't been searching for one for the past years, right?" The man looked up, as if he has struck gold, his face beamed and looked directly at the drunken girl. He replied, "Yes......you are right! I haven't been looking for anyone for the past years."
With that, the man darted across the floor and out the door, leaving the lady in much bewilderment. He finally realized that he has already found his dream girl, and she was.....the Vancouver girl all along! The drunken lady has said something that awoken him.

All along he has found his girl. That was why he did not bother to look further when he realized she was not coming back. It was not any specific girl he was seeking! It was perfection that he wanted, and yes.....perfection!!
Relationship is something both parties should work on. Realizing that he had let away someone so important in his life, he decided to call her immediately. His whole mind was flooded with fear. He was afraid that she might have found someone new or no longer had the same feelings anymore..... For once, he felt the fear of losing someone.

As it was Christmas eve, the line was quite hard to get through, especially an overseas call. He tried again and again, never giving up. Finally, he got through......precisely at 1200 midnight. He confessed his love for her and the girl was moved to tears. It seemed that she never got over him! Even after so long, she was still waiting for him, never giving up.

He was so excited to meet her and to begin his new chapter of their lives. He decided to fly to Vancouver to join her. It was the happiest time of their lives! But their happy time was short-lived. Two days before he was supposed to fly to Vancouver, he received a call from her father. She had a head-on car collision with a drunken driver. She passed away after 6 hours in a coma.
The guy was devastated, as it was a complete loss. Why did fate played such cruel games with him? He cursed the heaven for taking her away from him, denying even one last look at her! How cruel he cursed! How he damned the Gods...!! How he hated himself....for taking so long to realize his mistake!! That was in 1996.